Dear Friend

It has been a while since I have written for the eyes of others. This is a thing I considered not posting. I think it is important though, to help us sometimes remember how others see the world. Sometimes we need to remember the humanity in others. If we carry burdens together, they are no longer to much to hold.

I was recently asked a question that broke my heart a little. I was asked “Do you think anyone will ever appreciate me?” by an old friend. This friend has been through a lot in life. A terrible life, by no means, but a difficult one at times.

You see, we talk about things that really matter. We share stories and thoughts that no one else will ever know. We have been through many ordeals together. Many times we have been the only rock the other has known.

He thinks he is a bad guy. The things he has done and seen in life have lead him to believe things that are not all true. He has spent so much time in life pushing that he finally feels alone. Alone, is not what it promises to be.

I know that sometimes you worry about being alone forever. I know that sometimes you want to stay with people you don’t really like because it is easier than always being by yourself. I understand how things look after you stare at them long enough. How sometimes you stare long enough or you hear something so many times that it doesn’t make sense anymore. When things don’t look like they should, it is easy to lose faith, but there is a reason you went and reason you came back.

I want you to know, though I am uncertain if you read this, I appreciate you. It may seem cliche, but there is no one I would rather weather a storm with. I know who you are and what you have done is not who you are. Someday, when you break free of your chains, others will truly get to see you. You will realize that the people you want to love, do want to love you too. You will find the things you seek even though you don’t know you seek them. You will be happy, though now, happiness always seems so far away.

Loneliness is not a disease, it is a symptom of the way we all remove ourselves from everyone else. We build our walls so no one can get in. Sometimes we build them so high, we can’t seem to get out. Tear down your walls and build bridges. Smile each day because you know you want to. Don’t be afraid anymore, everything is going to be wonderful.